Hey there blogger..:)

im like at work now.so bored but nvm,will endure for 1 more week and im free from HPB.:P..and hello to SILKAIR.heheh.totally out of nursing ehss,wow...amazing.how baby encourage me,thanks dear.well oh well.a totally new environment.hehe excited and nervous seh.don't knw wad challenges will i go thru this time ard.

Anyway,wedding day is drawing very close now,let me see,about a mths plus.??!!!isshhhh...i dnt knw why but at times i get so nervous thinking abt it.spending the next half of my lyfe with MOHD SHAFFIQ BIN MOHD ILIAS.!!aaahhhh...Screamss...i wonder how would it be like for us.maybe more of ups and downs.ishh..it would be diff some how or rather.with a new job plus a very new lyfe.omg.heart pumping so fast now,butterfly in my tummy.dnt wish to think abt it.

lalala..listening to when you're lonely by bruno mars.nice 1.thanks to harizah love who introduce me to his songs. k la till then/:)







hey blogger.....!!!!!!!!

im at baby's house now.bored coz he is painting his room now.anyway i did nt attend work today.lazy lazy lazy....there was a celebration at work today but i needed to go for a job interview.it was an agency for nursing.the pay is quite okay but no cpf so ya i gotta put it in myself.no benefits too but its okay coz when i get married to baby im already considered under him.hehe.i cant wait to tender hpb urgghh...i love the job but i hate the ppl n the pay.very sad to leave la but no choice.baby approve of it anyway right.i hope it will be much better for our future.hehe.n much much better for me to do alot alot of shopping.i wanna save for driving licence n for us to get our very own car.do something nice for our house.hv a good life for junior in future.hmmss..its okay to dream right..insya'allah everything will go well for us in future.

now my headache is bck.i need to munnnccchhh urghh...my mouth is so itchy right now or shall i say nowadays.im getting fatter n fatter each day.n wedding day is like wad,2 mths time.stress stress stress.nervous nervous nervous.i have mixed feeling evrytime i think abt our wedding.i assume its normal.lallaa...okay la.thats it for now.good nightt.:)..

























When the 1 u love most betrays u.
when i was right but i was wrong.when I'm always wrong.when no one really understands.when im alone and nobody cared.when tears fall down rolling down my cheek.when they just watch when my heart crumbled.when the person i love betray me.when the person i love betray me.when i can trust nobody but myself.all by myself.when i never wanted to fall in love,but I'm trapped in love.its love that is so hard,so hard for me to control.when its so much like heaven and another moment its hell.we live in 2 different world cause u never really know me when i thought you knew.i thought its time i live with you for the rest of my life,but i doubt what i thought now.Cause the lies that you've always told me.when u lie to your love ones.it can never really cure the heart.











impossible...
I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did, I did
And you were strong and I was not
My illusion, my mistake
I was careless, I forgot
I did
And now when all is done
There is nothing to say
You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won
You can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard
Falling for betrayal is worst
Broken trust and broken hearts
I know, I know
Thinking all you need is there
Building faith on love is worst
Empty promises will wear
I know (i know)
And know when all is gone
There is nothing to say
And if you're done with embarrassing me
On your own you can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Ooh impossible (yeah yeah)

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy (i was happy)
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did




















i ammmmm very irritated with the irritating asshole.he is such an ASSHOLE.i cant stand him.doesnt even knw how to appreciate time.BODOH.!!!!lepas tuh ader hati nk tunjuk perangai.bnyk cantik la muke kau tu lah eh.kau pe pasal la.stupid fiance wasted my day.bodoh.luckily i did not claim time first.if not.he would be wasting every shit of my time.like he even cares anyway.dnt even knw how precious is time.n the most amazing thing was.he did not even call that he was gonna be late.i hv to call to find out.wad shit is this man.ur 28,use that brain of urs la.stupid.i dnt even think he is matured at times.too soft.dnt even knw if anything happen to me in future,tk guarantee if he would stand up for me.nowonder ppl step onto his head.knowing my character,n knwing how i would react,he is still doing it again n again..anyway he thinks that he is always right.like wad the hell.as if he is so great..if u are gonna prioritize others first.dnt be with me.u still hv yet to knw me.if u knw me too well.this wouldnt hv happen.stupid guy.

the important thing is i get to buy wad i want.
Went to isetan MAC.wooohh.its like as if i wanna buy the whole store,cant resist the make up there.but its too pricey.As i mention it was my I DONT GIVE A DAMN DAY.(TRY ME.:))i bought the mineral powder which cost me 55 bucks.!!omg.but yeah i love it n im happy.coz heartpain is equal to shop.:D.k then i head to mango n the
sale was still on n bags were selling for 19 bucks.wad else right.i grab it.yes.a bday gift for cuzzy.wanted to get her a guess wallet.but the remaining sale items were all ugly.maybe will head to bugis tmrw get more stuff.this is so fun.at last i can like really go n shop without thinking.i loikeee..!!:DD.....
y must i save every them cent when he cant be bothere,so y must i be bothered right.so i dnt give a shit anymre.its my money anyway,u r not allowed to knw or use my money.so y do u care.i wanted to help u save coz i pity u.but nw.its ur business.no point pity-ing someone who is not bothered.its sucha waste of my freaking time.

okay thats all.its 10pm now.i wanna watch LIFE and go to bed.nights.:)








dear blogger...
im at work now sitting in the office slacking ard.did some of my tracking already...will continue after lunch if im not lazy.:)
okay let me tell u abt my most wonderful weekend.

A short trip to johor from my grandma place to a kelong somewhere in the middle of the sea.whole famiy went there plus my darling.the purpose was for my parents and aunt to fish.but the environment there was terrible.i was like in a cammp.with the weather so hot.and the genarator only works at night.so the fan could not be turned on in the day.very suffocating with many ppl in the kelong.well.we caught many many fishes.all kind of weird fishes.it was fun to get the feel of catching a fish.n all went well there.me darling grandparents aunt n youngest bro went island hopping.n that was the 1st time i canoe.it was super fun yet tiring.den granparents wanted to try canoing as well.haha very funny yet sporting.
we wanted to snorkle as well but sadly we hv no time for that.we only got 2 hours at the island.well maybe next time den.
so there goes our trip.photos will be up in FB went darling hv uploaded all the pics..

den here goes the most irritating story.it was a monday n i took last min leave,too tired to wake up in the morning for work.lazy bum2.slept for half the day den wash up to meet darling.wad a surprise he end work early.3.30 pm.cool kn.how i wish he end work that early everyday.hehe.FAT hope.okay2 met him n was suppose to hv dinner together.but the plan changed.decided to treat darling's mummy for dinner cause it was her bday.so ya.went bck to darling's home.and everything was the same.den i decided to use the comp.So ya was sitting infront of the comp.den the msn messenger pop up.it was darling messenger n there was a lady saying some dirty stuff.i was so shocked.could it be that my darling hv been cheating on me all this while.okay i was already pissed.den darling saw n quickly delete the whole msn.i was like wad the hell.he was like keeping something from me.so i went to search for the whole msn thing n it logged in automatically.that person pm again sying the dirty stuff.so i went to ask to describe how darling looked like n stuff.n it was true.wad that person reply me bck was true.urgghh.i really cant believe this.i was extremely mad.!!!i didnt want his explaination.i dnt knw.whether to trust wad that person said or not.i didnt knw wad to do.my heart dropped n i didnt knw wad to feel.im angry.im sad.im dissapointed.our wedding is 3-4 moths away n this had to happen.its already hard for me to trust a person n this had to happen.so at the end of the day he told me that it was a stupid joke.n that he hv nvr seen that persoon b4.i really dnt knw who to believe.i mean,if a person wanna lie.by all means he'll find a way to lie or cheat.im very doubtful nw.hmms:(

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